I am not sure if I already mentioned this... but I am on the autism spectrum, have ADD, and might have slight depression, seasonal disorder, and bipolar disorder. Yea I am so screwed up I know I don't know how my boyfriend and my friends and you guys put up with me...
I have scars all over my legs (not my thighs just my legs from the ankle to the knee) because of ingrown hairs that I try to dig out with my fingernails and whatever other point objects I can find because they irritate me.
I have an obsession with medieval history and wanna go to lotsa historical places across the UK... And a little bit beyond that in France and Israel and places
I also shall admit another opening up confession.......................................................
I am obsessed with watching vlogs when I am feeling down..... And wish I did a vlog for a job, like the people I watch... But my life is not interesting enough for it..... If your interested in the main vlog i watch... look up Katersoneseven on youtube..... she is awesome though due to recent experiences has started limiting her vlogging.... Which is sad, cos she is funny and awesome and cheers me up on a bad day! = )
Third confession...........................
MY HAIR SMELLS SO GOOD RIGHT NOW I WANNA EAT IT!
Thats not my confession, my confession is I often feel guilty missing Tobycat because if he had not died I would never of got my Poppy who I adore and love.....
Post by ShinoDino first of her name! on May 9, 2019 21:21:17 GMT -6
Almost 6 years later . . .
Shine is listening to depressing rock music when she should be in bed because she has to get up at 5am . . .
But I can't stop remembering all of you and the glory days of this site. A time when things were simpler. Where I could hide away from the world for hours and hours. All of you were my best friends in the world.
I miss every single person in this thread. I miss everyone in the CBOX screenshots thread. I like reorganizing the site, but cleaning out these old threads is killing me and breaking my heart into a thousand pieces because I feel like (and deep down, I KNOW) this site is moving on.
I regret never going to see Fang and now I live two states away from her. Blegh.
I miss the nights that Mossstorm, Leafpaw, Kayla, and I spent being absolute freaking goofs at 3am. All of you mean the world to me, but there is nothing in this world like the love the 4 of us had. My Kayla-daddy, my Leafeh-Mommy, and my twin, my heart Mossypoo.
I'm bawling my eyes out because a part of me is still 14 years old, still obsessing over this site, still more devoted to this place than I ever have been to anything else. This site has been my rock. Through high school, through my dance injuries, heartbreaks, life and career changes, romantic troubles, moving, health problems . . . SCR has always been there.
It breaks me to see what SCR has become, and by extension, what the world has become. People still read warriors, but the world of forum role-playing has largely given way to the explosion of social media, memes, and instant gratification. SCR is not instant. It takes WORK. Dedication. Sneaking on the computer at all hours of the night. Taking up space on your hard drive with trackers. Getting mad at Photobucket for charging for photo storage now. Learning CODING (which I still fail at). Stretching writing muscles, not because it's required but because we love these mind-cats enough to give them life.
I'm listening to Linkin Park now and crying over Chester Bennington.
I hate growing older. I want to be 14 again, not a 26-year-old who's still trying to limp this site along, unable to move on. I'm angry, I'm sad, and I'm perpetually tired. I have to make a stupid grocery list tonight before I go to sleep. I AM SO OLD. A FREAKING GROCERY LIST.
Everyone I know is pregnant. I want to be a mom so badly it hurts. But my therapy has cost us so much money that we're still stuck in a tiny apartment and we don't have enough money to care for a baby. And it's my fault.
I've been rereading old threads as I move threads and it's a feels trip that, though I did it to myself, I did NOT sign up for.
^^this made me super mad at the people who hacked and deleted the site the last time. We lost SO MANY MEMORIES. THE ENTIRE TRIBE. EVERY TRIBE RELATED THREAD IS GONE. THE GATHERING FIRE. SHINESTORM'S EPIC DEATH THREAD.
But there are so many memories still. So many beautiful memories of characters as real to me as anything else. And Rushpelt being scared by a duck. xD
I am ashamed the mega-betch I was circa 2009-2012. I did not realize how often I acted out, even on here, and I'd like to formally apologize to everyone I mouthed off to (especially the patience-of-a-saint Snad). Shine was going through some hardcore crap in those years and even SCR couldn't entirely block it all out. I lost dozens of friends in those years, gave up dreams, was sick for 3 months straight, nearly lost control of everything in college, got in with some bad guys who broke my heart . . . I was angry and struggling. I'm sorry for anything I took out on any of you.
I LOVE THIS SITE. It is a hero. That's why I've been working so darn hard lately. This site deserves my best because it saved me. And it may well save me again.
It is so cold in my apartment right now wtf.
I'm scared that SCR is doomed if we can't bring it back. And I don't know what I'll do if that ever happens. Right now I don't let myself think about that too much because it upsets me, and I can't really get much more upset than I am right now.
Why did we have to grow up?
I believe in a Heaven, and I believe I'll be going there. I hope all of you will too, but either way . . . my Heaven will let me stay here forever.
Well said Shine... god I remember joining all the way back in our Conformous days as hawky. Since then I've been known as many names here but Tiger is the one that really stuck.
I miss these days a lot. Sneaking on to role-play at school when I had access to a computer or at home. My passion for roleplaying and warrior cats. Getting the new book every time it would come out. I used to be such a brat at times and I want to sincerely apologize. Being an awkward teenager is hard for anyone but for me being a special needs kid made it that much more difficult. All I ever wanted was to be accepted, find true friendship, and find true love. I found that through role-playing on here and other websites for quite a while (I met my first boyfriend back in 7th grade on a website called extinction cats... lord time flies.)
I MISS FEATHER MY WIFEY. I still want to go to Australia someday and meet you. I miss Fang... once upon a time I had her Snapchat and number and Skype and now I don't have them anymore
I am at work currently and leave in 10 minutes so I will type up more later... miss you all.
Post by ShinoDino first of her name! on Jun 11, 2019 20:39:45 GMT -6
A little over a month later . . .
I am in AWE over the effort that has been put into reviving this site. We have a little ways to go yet but I am so FREAKING proud!!
I had almost lost all hope.
This site has swooped in and saved my life again. I'm no longer drowning under depression and anxiety because this site is the greatest escape into the greatest world with some of the greatest people.
My mind is quiet here. <3 I am at peace here. <3
This site and its people make life amazing.
I AM SO PROUD OF EVERY SINGLE PERSON ON THIS SITE. No matter who you are. Your contribution built this site and constructed the foundation upon which SCR will rebuild!
Let me just say I am trying to come back. It is hard to get back and maintain a new routine and habit at first. This used to bring me so much joy and peace. Perhaps this can help save me now. A month ago I got out of a bad engagement and have been rather depressed. It's been difficult to say the least.
Post by ShinoDino first of her name! on Jun 22, 2019 10:49:30 GMT -6
TIGERYPOO I won't eve try to be impartial - I'd love to have you back and I don't hesitate to say that the rest of SCR probably feels the same. We're much more relaxed now and this place is purely for fun - and I mean that in a whole different way than the kind of fun SCR was 5-10 years ago. It's a beautiful thing.
SCR has saved me lately - please consider coming to visit more often! There's no pressure to do any more than what you want and can handle. <3
I set SCR as my homepage on my laptop - that kick-started the habit going again lol.
Post by SpoodleDoodles on Jun 22, 2019 23:14:48 GMT -6
Take your time Tiger, you are most welcome to return and as Shiney says we're all very chill people now, and just enjoy being here <3 Come join us and chat on our discord! We have a lot of fun with each other and will be nice to catch up with you again!
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