Post by ShinoDino first of her name! on May 10, 2019 11:18:08 GMT -6
I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms
He'd probably never stop coming here. Never stop taking in the scent of a rival Clan. Here, his memories soothed his heart. Here, he remembered simpler times. Before StoneClan. Before battles and dozens of dead warriors. Before his mother died in defense of the Clan she'd only loved because of her son. Before being banished from his medicine cat position for the sin of loving another. Before his mate disappeared. Before his kits hated him. Before he watched Darkfoot, his best friend, join StarClan despite his best efforts to stop the greencough massacre.
For so long he'd railed at StarClan for letting him endure the fire at the Gathering that ruined his lungs. He hadn't started the Gathering fight. It wasn't his fault that StarClan was forced to send the fire from the sky to end the carnage. He'd only wanted to be a warrior. He'd only fought because his leader did and his mother did.Now he couldn't imagine his life any other way, despite the incredible hardship he'd endured. He knew full well StarClan would not have chosen him to be a medicine cat had he not suffered the permanent effects of smoke inhalation. Their own punishment had steered his life off course. Now they had gone silent. Again. Needlethorn had been cold and distant the night she'd given him his full name and nearly every time he'd visited them since.Now he had an apprentice with a broken back, a leader traumatized and backed into a corner, and a Clan quaking in fear.He could handle all of that, maybe . . . if only he'd been able to help his daughter Skyheart.Owlflight winced. He'd never get her blue eyes, so accusing, out of his mind. She and Blazestorm had tried for a season for kits. When Blazestorm disappeared, Skyheart had come to him in desperation during Swiftdance's last disappearing act. He'd been so hopeful too, wanting this happiness for her. When he had to tell her that, no, she was not pregnant, the look on her face shattered his heart.She blamed him for her troubles. And he couldn't fully disagree.His love for all of his kits, the four that rested with StarClan and the one here with him, threatened to overwhelm him, and the mottled tom took a deep rattling breath to steady himself. He'd come out here looking for herbs, not more heartache.Oh Hinafeather, I can't help our daughter. She has no one to lean on and won't allow me near her. I wish she could find it in her heart to forgive me.
I'm at war with the world cause I
Ain't never gonna sell my soul
I've already made up my mind
No matter what I can't be bought or sold